I can't watch Dexter. I have a serial killer phobia. When I was a little girl, I saw footage of Ted Bundy in the courtroom, looking all charming and innocent. Even the judge said he had trouble believing Bundy was guilty. I also saw a TV movie about the Kitty Genovese murder - the woman whose murder by a serial killer was both heard and witnessed by people in her apartment complex. No one intervened.
As a young girl, this taught me that predators walk among us, and people allow it even when they know better. They do this because predators can be charming, or invisible everymen. Or because they believe the victim knows his/her attacker which makes it a personal family matter. No one wants to get involved, or believe that one of their nieghbors/peers could do such a thing.
So, I occassionally read about serial killers to try to understand what isn't understandable. I listen to radio interviews by law enforcement and psychologists who are experts in serial killers. It helps for a little while, but ultimately it makes me feel sick and helpless. The idea that Dexter is a hero, a man who enjoys killing, makes me sick. I should be happy that he's killing what scares me, but I don't. Why?
When you look at the list above, everyone but Dorothea was motivated by sex. It's an incredibly strong impulse - these men just could not get it going unless they were in control to the point of - or after - death occuring. So, when I think of Dexter, I can't help but think of him doing what most serial killers do after a kill. Yuck. Dexter the sad vigilante, I could sympathise with. Dexter the serial killer, I can't. Not at all.








Dexter is a great show, can't wait till it's back. John Lithgow will be an interesting addition.