You could say that this is a true blog's blog. I'm mainly going to talk about things in my life and thoughts that I have about them. I'll probably have some reviews sprinkled in when I find something I've fallen in love with. But mostly it's just going to be me rambling!
Why oh why Anxiety?
Posted 10-19-2010 at 02:41 PM by Herron
The last... hm.. 3 days I've been having anxiety the hours before work. Once I get to work I'm fine, but before it my nerves start acting up and I don't really know how to explain it. It's like I'm scared and nervous. My stomach gets queasy, there's a tingle in my throat and sometimes I feel light headed. Almost like I'm going to have a panic attack. So far it's not that serious and it ebbs and flows, but I don't like that I've been having them the last few days for seemingly no reason!
Usually my anxiety/nerves flair up when I'm confronting new situations that I'm not sure how to prepare for or know what to expect. So I've come to anticipate that I'll have a bit of anxiety during those situations and can deal with it. But the problem here is I that everything is essentially the same so I don't know where these feelings are coming from.
If you've read my Highs and Lows you know there's a lot of issues going on at work that are pretty stressful, but don't directly involve me and they've been going on a while anyway. Though I do feel like that is part of it. Then there's a second more personal issue, though it also centers around work, but I have a feeling something might be happening there and I'm not sure what to do about it... neither are really that big of deals, not so much that it should be affecting me this much!
I really do think we've just had so much going on at work that it's making me nervous about what's going to happen. That I'm going to be put on the spot one way or another and I won't know the best thing to do.
One thing that I've been able to do is watch The Office before work and it calms me down, makes me smile and laugh. Then I also am looking forward to my vacation that starts at the end of this week. I just hope when I come back things have improved at work.
I really wish I wouldn't get anxiety like this and for the most part I've improved. I don't think I've had anxiety this bad since high school. Even then it wasn't frequent.
I've come to be really big about facing my fears during the recent years and it's really helped me gain confidence and knock some of this anxiety down.
Well I only have to make it through today then tomorrow I'm off and the next day I work is in projections so it'll be more relaxed. So... I'll just deal fo' reals!