Sometimes the only way to progress is to do dumb things.

I kind of feel like a dumb ass right now, but at the same time proud of myself cuz I took a chance. See there's been this guy that I had a pretty good idea was crushing on me and I kinda like him, but not in a serious way just a kind of interested way. The situation is complicated. We were having a pretty good night last night... actually it kinda felt like we were on a date. I brought up the subject of if he was interested in me and he said he was, and we sat in my car slightly awkward for a while. He said he was gonna go and got out of my car and then I called him back in and leaned over to kiss him and he turned his head... so I kissed his cheek... I was kinda like damn, seriously!
We left after that and text a little to make sure things were cool between us, but I'm still feeling like... damn, wtf, am I just cursed to make guys run the other way even if they like me?
Eh I don't know.
The thing is... I wanted to kiss him, I went for it, it didn't quite turn out well, but I'm proud that I pushed myself out of my safety zone and at least *tried* to kiss him... That means a lot to me because I've never done something like that before. I'm always too shy and afraid of rejection, but I did it and... well I kinda did get rejected slightly. But still I'm glad I pushed myself forward.
Now I don't really know what's going to transpire between us. I'm sure we'll remain friends, but will he try something later, when he's more confident or is this the end of that chapter... don't know and kinda confused.